“Some days you win and some days you lose,” they say. The reality is, though, through the past year I’ve “taken the L” more than I have in my entire life. Loss seemed to come after loss once the pandemic hit: first my job, then career opportunities, then a deep friendship, and, ultimately, someone that …
To whom it may concern:
A man once told me: “You know, you’d look much better with long hair.” Another said, “Babe, cut more off!” With longing in his stare. I cut more off, per his request, all 180 pounds of him. And, truth be told – I’m better off, yes, & happier in my skin. A pretty face, a …
Unprecedented times: success, maybe.
Several years ago (the autumn of 2016, to be exact), I was sitting in Communications 2321 or, “Writing for Strat Comm,” bored out of my mind. The class was a requirement to earn a degree in the department of communication: a requirement I found wildly unnecessary and would complain about as often as I could. …
August, slipping away into a moment in time
It is now August, 2020, meaning Covid-19 hit over five months ago. I remember my perspective back in March, a convoluted combination of anxiety and apprehension toward the uncertainty of the virus and the future and excitement at the prospect of the extra time to learn French, practice the guitar, revamp this platform and write …
An Obligatory Update
I haven’t posted anything here for some time. The reality is that I created this to be a space to creatively and healthily process and reflect of life for its own sake, and the past months have left me without the space or motivation to engage with anything deeper than the day-to-day. I have seen …
Embracing Intentionality
The word that most readily come to my mind when thinking about what my soul craves right now is intentionality. As I have become more accustomed to my new home, it has become easier to float along with the plans or choices of others and more difficult for me to say no— even when I …
Regarding new beginnings: a follow up
I have been living in Louisville for a week now. I feel unsure and unsettled and unknown. Mondays are my Sabbath rest. My plan for today was to spend my time writing and reflecting on God’s word. However, instead of taking care of myself and spending time with God, I chose to try to “fix” …
Regarding new beginnings: Louisville bound
**Note: Written 3 September, 2018. Posted one week later.** Tomorrow is a new start. I will move to a new state to begin a new job and move in with new people. Naturally, I am feeling a little nervous about this transition. But, the thing is, as the self-doubt slowly creeps in, I am keenly …
Navigating numbness: waking up
Today, I feel I have so many thoughts to voice but I don’t know how. I want to tell you about how I have been rediscovering my love for plants and it has been giving me so much joy to watch fresh water run through the cracks in the soil of my two half-dead succulents …
Navigating numbness: comfort is not rest
When I first started this blog two months ago, I made myself only one rule: don’t be the person who starts a blog, writes one or two posts and then seemingly gives up or forgets about it. Unfortunately, that is exactly what happened. After an emotionally and spiritually full start to the summer, I let …